I became my mother in 48; I have already done all the luxury work events

This translated article is based on a conversation with Rene byrd. It was released for length and clarity.

When I was forty years old, I went back for seven days full of meditation and massage to fall in love with psychological. I am a strong believer that to find love, you must first love yourself.

I wanted to settle with someone and build a family, but this did not happen. Three years ago, I froze my eggs because I knew that I wanted a family one day.

In retreat, I deeply felt in my soul that I would find my personality one day and grabbed my child in my hands. I will not give up hope.

I met someone in a bar

I went back to the house, continued dating, but it was not until a meeting of an opportunity in a bar that finally found the man who would become my husband. I was 41 years old, and he was 34 years old.

I remember unwillingness to intimidate him by talking a lot about my desire for children, but we had discussions about the future. When love began to open between us, we started looking at our options to have a child together.

After trying to comprehensive and in vain, we decided to walk on the path of artificial insemination. I heard horror stories about artificial insemination – that it was never clear – but since my eggs had already been frozen, it was the best choice for us at that time.

I felt guilty waiting for a long time

After two and a half years, I received the news from the IVF-I was pregnant. I have collapsed, my husband is connected to tell him that we will have a child.

Throughout pregnancy, I remember that I am afraid of what this new life will look like as a mother. I had little panic attacks taking into account the difference in life, compared to life contracts without a child. Then I felt guilty, and I told myself that I had waited a long time for this. There was a lot of struggle with these ideas until I realized that my child would be just an extension for me.

Once our little boy, Crowe, was born in November 2024, I felt prepared for his arrival in theory. After I spent years hearing friends with children, I had an idea of ​​what to expect. Even so, those early days were much to deal with it. All of these things were thrown into my face about what I should and should not do with a child.

Being my mother in the late 1940s has a lot of beautiful benefits

I joined the mother and child societies on the Internet and personal children’s groups, and I find the mothers tribe like me, those that were “older”.

There is still inside me, and I take care of Crue. I have this playing book, which was developed from years of research and observation, which gave me confirmation that even when it does not seem to be planning – such as breastfeeding or sleeping – I was fine, and so was it.

After building financial security, I was not worried about how to provide a child. Created in a profession, I can plan all children’s expenses, including artificial insemination.

Since I got a lot of my regular regularity – the work of companies, parties and gentle restaurants – I felt satisfied to settle at home with my child and my husband. I never feel missing.

The only concern that I heard quietly whispered in different circles is my health. I know that as old, small problems with my body can appear – issues that I may not face as a younger mother. This forced me to take care of my body more than ever so that I can completely enjoy the time with Crue as he gets older.

It would have always become a dream for me. I trusted this process, adheres to hope, and despite its delay, my dream has finally fulfilled.